Not in the rightstateofmind.

I've to apologise for my previous entry which I've decided to delete.
Hui is right. I was acting like a spoilt child, rebellious.

It was a battle in the field of emotions and feelings.

I was living in denial! >.<
Why?

Something was obviously there but I refused to acknowledge it.
And it wasn't a one-off thing.
It kept coming back to haunt me.
I had to decide to do something.
I decided to act on what I really wanted.
Because I can't live on illusions I made forever...