Retail Therapy is TOO MUCH FUN.

I spent $50 at Helen, $20 for 2 tee shirts, $15 for a cardigan, $164 on cosmetics and $50 on food. All these within 3 days!

LIKE I DO NOT HAVE INCOME NOW. THERE'S ONLY CASH OUTFLOW!

Ahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!
Fine. Out of the 164 dollars on cosmetics, only 30 dollars are mine. The rest is for a friend.

But I really enjoy shopping(:

Blood diamonds.

The movie "Blood Diamonds" made me realise something.

Some people are suffering
and badly oppressed in this world.
Yet many of us do not appreciate
the kind of life we are in right now.
There's no bombs, no gunshots heard,
children get to play and study.

I don't think many of us witnessed
an injured victim crawling in blood.
I don't think we'd know what to do with him.

We are sitting at home everyday,
in front of our televisions and laptops,
watching dramas and talk shows for hours and hours.
What is the purpose for us?

We get to laugh and sing with our friends.
Some are not so fortunate.

They are always running. No place to call home.


I know I'd still want a diamond ring! But not blood diamonds.

Love.

I'm not in Love and I know it.

Or do I really know?

When it comes to Love.

I'm not the Expert in regards to Love.
But I wanna say,

When it comes to Love, find someone who'd love everything about you.

Someone who loves you when you're at your best;
and also when you're at your worst.


All the best!

Always frustrated about some things.

Our family is closest to us.
Yet they are the most irritating/irritable creatures to live with.

We expect more.
We thought they'd understand our situation.
We thought they'd see from our point of view.
We thought they'd know we are tired after being at school for the whole day.
We thought they'd care the way we want them to.
We thought they'd be nicer to us.

I thought wrong.

We are harsher to our family because we assume we know what's best for them.
But other than God, I don't know who esle knows best.

Mother.

She says she doesn't care about him.
She says she's better off without him.
She says she wished she married someone esle.
She says to pick someone wealthy.
She says to pick someone smart.

Doesn't she know that wealth is not forever?
Doesn't she know that someone smart doesn't mean he'll love you?
Doesn't she remember the reason she picked him?
Doesn't she remember the happier times?

She is the one who is so worried about him not calling home to say he's safe.

I'm supposed to block out all emotions.

I wished I am a robot.
But I'm not.

How am I suppose to deal with all these emotions and feelings?
The only way is to block them out.

Pretend that its non-existent.

Love.

I want to stare into your eyes and never look away;
I want you to hold me in your arms and tell me it's okay;
I want to kiss with a passion that only we can share,
and when it all falls down I want you to be there.


I wish I could tell someone that.